whoaa it's been like ages since the last time i updated my blog.

it's 4.24 a.m and i haven't asleep. i just got home from my workshop; slept there for a few hours but was woken up by a swarm of mosquitoes and realized my friends had gone home and i'm all alone at the workshop. so i ended up going home and can't fall asleep surfing the internet randomly.



soo... my hippie friend tweeted a link at tweeter: http://www.templeofsacredsound.org/
and since he is an eccentric and philosophic one - he seems to be very interested in hindu and buddha - i opened the link.

such an interesting site, i guess. it says "We can transform the world with Our Love, Our Light, and Our Sound!" it got 3 different 'Tombs' and each plays different chants: Om, Ah, Hu. While you're listening to it, you can watch a video playing a transforming lights and patterns. Hypnotizing.


Drown in the chants at these hours making it more perfect. I remember my lecturer said: "our Muslim brothers starts the 5-time-prayer at 4.30 am. Why? I have a habit: waking up every 4 in the morning and read a book i'm reading. it's the perfect time to read because it's when the world is taking a breath and everything's calm. It's the perfect time to get closer to our God."

He was right, I agree.

"Siapa yang berhak menilai kebaikan kita? Mengapa kita melebihi Tuhan dalam menghakimi sesama?"

-Alex Tata, Kompas

grateful I was not accepted at ITB

thanks God for not letting me go to San Francisco
thanks God for showing me the way to Bandung
thanks God for not putting me into ITB
thanks God for putting me into Itenas
thanks God for the great lecturers
thanks God for the amazing lectures since the first day at Itenas

I don't know what's Your plan
I don't know how You're working on me
I don't know how You see my future

but I'm grateful for everything I have until today
I'm grateful for all the journey I've gone through

I believe You have a great plan on me.


I DO REALLY LOVE ITENAS!! I'VE MET THE GREATEST TEACHERS OF ALL!!

terry - janji manis

oh dunia ini penuh kepalsuan
mungkinkah tiada keikhlasan
apakah ini suatu pembalasan
ku sadar kebesaranMu Tuhan
aku bagai seorang
kembara jalanan
terombang-ambing di lautan gelora
ku cari kebahagiaan
dan untuk menopang kasih
mungkinkah suratan
hidup kan selalu sendirian


hati membeku mengingatkan
kata janji manisMu
ku dilambung angan-angan
belaian kasih sayang suci dariMu
oh kejamnya
lidah tidak bertulang
ucapan cinta mengiris kalbu
ku kan pergi membawa diri
cinta di hati terkubur lagi


jika ku pahami mengapa terjadi
peristiwa pahit menggores hati
perjalanan hidup ini sudah tertulis
ku tempuhi dengan kesabaran
ku sadar kebesaranMu Tuhan

what the world would be if we don't know GOD, or any supreme-being in our life?

just see how chaotic USA is..

we worship the same GOD.

Before moving to Serpong, my mom and one of the priest in my church reminded me to be careful because I was about to get into a Catholic school. They warned me that we have different religion, tho with the same God, but they have different ways in worshiping God. Not knowing anything, I just accepted everything they said.

However, the first year in Laurensia was really a great lesson in introducing Catholic to me. I was surprised about the making of a cross before and after a prayer, about Holy Mary prayer, a different kind of Our Father prayer, the ceremony, the congregation, and lots more. We had a mass for every 3-4 months and some religion ceremonies like Ash Wednesday, Easter Day, Christmas Day, and others.

And as I grow up, I make up my own principle and way of thinking.

Last Easter, I went to Santo Laurensius Catholic Church 400 meters away from my house. I've been going there 3 times with my friends. It somehow has been our tradition to go to church together every Easter. Each time I got home, my mom would asked: what did you do there? And warned me about all the differences between Protestant and Catholic. However, I always said, "It doesn't matter, Mom! The hell should we take care about that?! We worship the same God!" And she would argued, "no! You don't understand! We ARE different!"

Then, I would shut my mouth. Better not arguing with her since it would be a waste as she would not understand.

For me, religion is just a status. Well, not an ID-kind-of-status. I mean, I choose to be Protestant because, first, I do believe in Jesus Christ. Second, I believe that all we should worship is God and no else, including Mary, or our ancestors. Third, I believe that once we dead, it is all about heaven and hell and there's nothing else.

BUT, if it is the matter of different co-religions like Catholic, Orthodox, Jew, or even different religions such as Islam, Buddha, or others, I do NOT bother. I don't care if I pray at a Catholic church, or even at a mosque. I don't care if I make a cross before or after a prayer. I don't care if I receive a blessing from a Hajj.

I will follow Buddhists way in not killing animal, even an insect, since I believe it is a good way in respecting God's creatures. I will not bother fasting with other Muslims because I believe it really is good to strain our worldly desires.

I believe we worship the same God. It's that just people have their own way in worshiping God. I believe that God won't care if a Christian kneel like a Muslim to worship him. I believe that God won't care if a Christian pray at a Mosque and so with Muslim praying at a church. What God cares is to whom we worship. He will be angry if worship money, or drugs, or other worldly things.


Why should we bother? STOP prejudices!!