the ending of 2009

okay... here it is my first post on the new year 2010. i've just passed the old year 2009 last night. 2009 has been a year with lots of experiences, lessons, blessings, sadness, happiness, hardships, and, of course, troubles.

having great times with friends at school.

study trip to bali; experiencing new great stuffs.
hiked to the top of mount batur for around 2 hours and saw one of the best view i've ever seen.it was really tiring yet fun. my feet were like going to rip off. but i do really wanna go there again! we also do rafting. it was another greatest experience there. beautiful view on the banks, green cliffs, water falls, beautiful birds. biking all the way through ubud early in the morning before the sun went up. went through up-and-down roads, rice fields with sunrise, cycling on the edge of a cliff, and biked up to an extremely steep road. most of us had to walk with the bicycle instead of cycling since it's too hard. and the best part was to go down the road all through ubud. we didn't have to bike it; just directed it relaxly. when we got home, there were thousands of photos from bali uploaded to facebook and we still missed and had the atmosphere in bali for 1-2 weeks.



frictions with some of my friends.

parties every week.

freakin twilight musical play.

bandung with friends.

report card and flight to San Francisco on the next day.

one month living in San Francisco; learning way too much things. ways of thinking, principles, foods from Africa and Mid-East, working at a florist, my first salary, fights with my uncle.


getting into grade 12 with new class.

again, friction with some friends.

stressed out in looking for funds for loren cup. 1 month busy selling food. didn't even have time to eat out with my friends. stayed upstairs all day selling drinks and foods. lifting boxes from the lobby up to the 3rd floor. or took cool boxes to basketball field and took it back to the 3rd floor.

loren cup. didn't really have great games but was really satisfied with the success of it. everything went well except for the weather. soaked up 3 times in rain in a week. stayed till 7.30 at school. the closing was really the best one. great performances from bands and dance groups especially for Abdul and the Coffee Theory. worked till 11pm as Abdul's drummer lost his blackberry. having normal week with euphoria atmosphere still.

quizzes. tests. and homeworks piled up. work and study till late night. yet, i was really amazed that i could finish everything right on the due date and not getting late. i learned that it trained my responsibility.

the freakin month finished and we had a week free from tasks and anything. just waiting for coming up holiday. community service to muara angke; got into mangrove swamp to clean it from rubbishes. it's unbearably smelled bad and dirty. but it's quite an interesting experience, tho. there was also an art performance on the last day. i liked how it was designed. it was made like a festival. there were just some chairs and picnic tables around the stage which was built on the empty field. So, we got a relax and playful atmosphere there. some of the bands were also pretty good.



and finally the long waited 3 weeks holiday. i went out with my friends everyday. such a wasting of money. we also had a yakiniku time for christmas in the afternoon. and went to kemang at night with no plan at all before. it was a great night. so much fun and exciting since we did it in such a sudden. we laughed a lot. we ate a lot at burger king. we even almost dead from collision with a bus. unforgettable night.


two great persons died on 30th of dec. first, gus dur, a great old man, indonesia ex-president. i really adored him. he is the man from majority that loves minority. he was the one ending the discrimination againts chinese people in indonesia. he was the man struggling for equality for everyone; those who are disabled, comes from minority, or different classes. in his eyes, everyone are the same. i felt really sad when he died. i lost the hero. the second person is Sara. a great 23 year old woman sailing all over the world with his boyfriend, Charles. she spent her live on the sea. she died because of diabetes. i adored her for her courage to sail in such an age. leaving everything behind there. she was also sweet and kind according to her friends. she's supposed to have a longer life! everything is in God's will anyway. i will really miss them.


in the end, finally, the last day of 2009 came. tata carla cindy and i planned to play some fireworks together at night after family dinner; since we always had nothing to do in new year's eve. it is the first time for me to spent new year without my parents. i had a bad atmosphere at home in the afternoon till night. there was some family problems and it broke my family's mood. so, i was really grateful that i could hang out with my friends. it was so fun. great photos. great laughs. beautiful fireworks. beautiful sky. beautiful stars. beautiful moon. it was one of the brightest moon i've ever seen. so bright that we could see the cloud clearly. so bright we didn't even need any light to light us. the night was PERFECT. i ended the year with such a pleasure. i hope this new year would be great. :D

HAPPY NEW YEAR, ALL!!

wtf. this is what i hate the most. planning a plan for a long time. we had agreed before that.

and suddenly it is canceled.


what make me mad are that it is just because some of the lose their mood. JUST BECAUSE OF THE MOOD! what a selfish ruining all the plans.

more.. an irresponsible person suddenly came up with another idea ruining all the plans without considering the effect of it.


huff. i know it might be their rights to do that and i might have no right to be mad of it. but it just sucks when everything is messed up without feeling any guilt on them.


cant they be at least a bit more responsible?

"

And today, and for the years to come, please don't say "yes" when you want to say "no", and don't say "no" when you want to say "yes"!

"
-paulo coelho

“
Time is very slow for those who wait
Very fast for those who are scared
Very long for those who lament
Very short for those who celebrate
But for those who love time is eternal
”
-William Shakespeare

“

One day, you will die.

You will stop and the world will carry on. Lovers will love. Others will shop, laugh and cry. Sometimes alone. Sometimes together. The radio will keep playing.

But you will be gone.

Only the love you gave, the souls you touched and the people you changed, will remain.

They will carry on for you. They will pick up where you left off.

There is nothing to be sad about here.

”

source: i wrote this for you

ramenn

jigoku ramen at sanpachi (18)

tonkatsu ramen at sing sing

"This is not the end. It is not even the beginning of the end. But it is, perhaps, the end of the beginning"

Sir Winston Churchill

First Project in the World

Fifteen investors agreed to finance the construction of rapid rail hydrogen-worth 3 billion U.S. dollars (about USD 28.5 trillion). Project with Hi-Speed Hydrogen Super Highway Rail Concession (H2RSH) This will open the route Jakarta-Bandung-Cirebon along 357 km.

"This train speed reaching 400 km / hour, so the journey that usually takes five hours to be shortened to just one hour," said Dr. E. E. Sjahrial, Senior Managing Partner, a member of the consortium after the signing of the MoU CAEDZ infrastructure development is the Chairman of Kadin Indonesia Iwan Darmawan Committee Hanafi Singapore at Hotel Marriott, Putrajaya Malaysia, Tuesday (1 / 12).

The first project in the world.


source: akhyari.blogspot.com [good news from indonesia]

God and Real Life

Christian tradition
A protestant priest, having started a family, no longer had any peace for his prayers. One night, when he knelt down, he was disturbed by the children in the living room.
“Have the children keep quiet!” he shouted.
His startled wife obeyed. Thereafter, whenever the priest came home, they all maintained silence during prayers. But he realized that God was no longer listening.
One night, during his prayers, he asked the Lord: “what is going on? I have the necessary peace, and I cannot pray!”
An angel replied: “He hears words, but no longer hears the laughter. He notices the devotion, but can no longer see the joy.”
The priest stood and shouted once again to his wife: “Let the children play! They are part of praying!”
And his words were heard by God once again.

Muslim tradition
A blind man was begging on the road to Mecca, when a pious Moslem came over and asked whether the people were giving generously – as the Koran commands. The man showed him his little tin, which was almost empty. The traveler said:
– Let me write something on the card around your neck.
Hours later, the traveler returned. The beggar was surprised, for he had received a large amount of money.
– What did you write on the card? – he asked.
– All I wrote was: Today is a beautiful spring day, the sun is shining, and I am blind.

Jewish tradition
Dov Beer de Mezeritch was asked:
“Which example should one follow? That of pious men, who devote their lives to God? That of scholars, who seek to understand the will of the Almighty?
“The best example is that of the child,” he answered.
“A child knows nothing. It hasn’t yet learned what reality is,” people commented.
“You are all quite wrong, for a child possesses three qualities we should never forget,” said Dov Beer. “They are always joyful without reason. They are always busy. And when they want something, they know how to demand it firmly and with determination.”

source: www.paulocoelhoblog.com

selfish

selfishness brings success?? absolutely NOT agree.

ego and selfishness are just the two worst humans' character. the two main antagonists of world's conflicts and wars.

people want things what they dream; taking no care for others' privileges.
they want more and more money and worlds' treasures; even corrupting others' money.
they won't care about others unless they get what they want. they won't even care about innocents' life unless they win the war.

it was the reason why even a president could heartlessly corrupted his people money for years. it is the reason why middle-east wars never ends. it was the reason why people could slaughter millions of people in the world wars.

those selfish people will brainwash others by saying that taking no care for others is just about struggle and to reach a victory we have to sacrifice others - even their life.
afraid of being selfish will just make us as a coward - unable to grab the victory into our hands.


then, why did God create humans? not just one but billions of them? why do we have heart? what are our feelings for? sad? happy? angry?


success can be reached with love and respects. working together as a human with our heart. support and help each other to make a solid relationship. and bring peace to the world.

yummy!!

i've tried a lot of different foods. indonesians' to africans', sweet to bitter.

yet, there are only 3 irreplaceable food in my top list of culinary:

sushi. my first favorite food. i used to hate sushi because its taste of uncooked fish. but, years later, after i tried sushi and sashimi for the second time.... i LOVE it!! it becomes tasty and.. i dont know.. there's a kind of "sensation" :P.. since then, i'm addicted. it was like i gotta eat it at least once a week. hahah.

ayam bakar.. i can't hold myself from eating it if it's on my table. no matter if i'm stuffed already, i'll still eat it. moreover when it is served with amazing sambal. the taste of sweet soy sauce and other seasonings is incredible... XD

and this one.. satay. the second best indonesian food... tasty!! yay!! hahaha. especially lamb satay... it's the best satay on earth :P



eating those food makes me feel like my stomach is a few times larger than before; giving more space for more food. i could even spend for about Rp 600,000 for sushi with my one friend on a quite cheap sushi restaurant. hahaha. those food are soo tempting me. even thinking bout it makes me hungry rite now.

wow. i've changed! :P

in this freakin stressful week, with tons of tasks and exams and tests, i find the positive side of it. huff.

i feel something changes in me. i become a more responsible and discipline person. i'm more mature.

i'm different than months ago when i used to submit tasks late and not care about exams. when i found it's hard to be finished, i would give up and decide to submit it later on. but, with these life pressures i can manage my time better. using my time effectively, not wasting any time for playing or relaxing. i finished my homework before the due date and do everything to finish it on time - even if i had to work all night long. i study at break time so that i can work on other things at home.

how "nerd" ahaha.



though it's freakin me out, i'm pretty satisfied with this changes. preparing me for college :P what will happen to me in college if i don't adapt myself with this kind of business?

discipline is the first thing we need to be successful.

soo... i don't wanna look at my jobs as burdens anymore since it helps me a LOT!! XD

moony - i don't know why

This song is soo my friend's and my life right now. feels so dull and tiring. yet there's no other way but to enjoy every moment of our days. XD


Never happy, not satisfied
Always complains for nothing
Hopes and dreams are fading away
It's not hard to figure it out
There's no doubt, you'll find a way
Live the moment, each and every day

I don't know why
I cannot see the beauty in front of me
I cannot...
I don't know why
I cannot see the beauty in front of me (in front of me)

Always thinking it’s not enough
Maybe it’s time to fight for it
Days and years are going so fast
We run set we’re full of regrets
Why keep on blaming someone else?
Love and luck are turning their back

Now I see here
It's always been there
People like their simple things
Live the moment, each and every day

I don't know why
I cannot see the beauty in front of me
I cannot...
I don't know why
I cannot see the beauty in front of me (in front of me)

Is it there?
Is it right there?
Right in front of you (right in front of you)
This is what you've been looking for
For a long, long time
Make it real, make it right now (make it right now, make it right now)
You've got to live it now

I don't know why
I cannot see the beauty in front of me
I cannot...
I don't know why
I cannot see the beauty in front of me (in front of me)

its human race's stupidity

In case you needed further proof that the human race is doomed to stupidity, here are some actual label instructions on consumer goods:

On a Sears hairdryer -- Do not use while sleeping.
(Shoot, and that's the only time I have to work on my hair.)

On a bag of Fritos -- You could be a winner! No purchase necessary. Details inside.
(the shoplifter special)?

On a bar of Dial soap -- "Directions: Use like regular soap,"
(and that would be how???....)

On some Swanson frozen dinners -- "Serving suggestion: Defrost."
(but, it's "just" a suggestion).

On Tesco's Tiramisu dessert (printed on bottom) -- "Do not turn upside down."
(well...duh, a bit late, huh)!

On Marks & Spencer Bread Pudding -- "Product will be hot after heating."
(...and you thought????...)

On packaging for a Rowena iron -- "Do not iron clothes on body."
(but wouldn't this save me more time)?

On Boot's Children Cough Medicine -- "Do not drive a car or operate machinery after taking this medication."
(We could do a lot to reduce the rate of construction accidents if we could just get those 5-year-olds with head-colds off those forklifts.)

On Nytol Sleep Aid -- "Warning: May cause drowsiness."
(and...I'm taking this because???....)

On most brands of Christmas lights -- "For indoor or outdoor use only."
(as opposed to...what)?

On a Japanese food processor -- "Not to be used for the other use."
(now, somebody out there, help me on this. I'm a bit curious)

On Sainsbury's peanuts -- "Warning: contains nuts."
(talk about a news flash)

On an American Airlines packet of nuts -- "Instructions: Open packet, eat nuts."
(Step 3: maybe, ooh...fly Delta?)

On a child's Superman costume -- "Wearing of this garment does not enable you to fly."
(I don't blame the company. I blame the parents for this one.)

On a Swedish chainsaw -- "Do not attempt to stop chain with your hands or genitals."
(Oh my ..was there a lot of this happening somewhere?)

Now that you've smiled at least once, it's your turn to spread the stupidity.



www.boardofwisdom.com

how ironic.

10th grade

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried.


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hypocrite

how could a person, tease others when she does the worse thing?
she said that she is disgusted with them
she said that they are hypocrites


yet. i can't even see the positive side of her. i mean the positive in her heart.
she talks about others behind them. but she behaves like the most friendly person with them.
she said she is disgusted with others' behavior. but she herself behaves like the one that she is disgusted with.


what word would be more suitable with her than a HYPOCRITE??




don't judge others when you don't even look into yourself that you're might be much worse.

I've just downloaded some songs of my favorite singer of my childhood, Sherina. She's just a few years older - so, when she was famous, she was also still a kid.


Eventhough those are songs for kids, I noticed that the songs are much more meaningful than adult songs these days. I hate Indonesian songs. It's just because they're monotone, uncreative, and MEANINGLESS. All they sing about is: love. You can count it by yourself, from all Indonesian songs made within a year, how many of them are love songs. I'm pretty sure the result will be, at least, over 80%.

One of the songs sang by Sherina says: "... look everything closer, then you can see more wisely." Or, another song says: "...every human on earth have ever been hurted, but just those with noble heart forgive."

I was amazed when I listen carefully to the songs. I never realized how meaningful it is before. Even kids' songs used to be meaningful. Unfortunately, now, even a 5-year-old kid can sing adult songs well.


How ironic.

don't be late

One of the most important thing for a country to be on top is discipline. look at Japan and Singapore. With their discipline in time and rules, they've grown to be one of the economically strongest countries. Japan could catch up just in a few decades after isolating from the outside world and became the best in technology. And Singapore, being the youngest doesn't mean that they lost. Instead, they become the gold of Asia.

Meanwhile, what is going on with our country Indonesia?


Here is the thing making us hard to grow up: no discipline.

How could we compete with the world when we can't even be on time? When delaying an appointment for one hour is considered normal?
How could investors trust us if we can't even run our own laws? When even the polices are making a drama?
How could our economy go well if we can't even be discipline while driving? When we ourselves make the roads jammed?


My friends teased me for doing my homework on time; they'd say: "why should we submit it tomorrow? the score is not even deducted when I submit it a week after the due date!"

But, for me, score doesn't matter. I just wanna train myself to be discipline and responsible for everything. Even if I don't like my tasks and the condition is not supporting me to do it, I'll work on it.

Being on time is very important and I hate those who always say: "okay. see ya at 1" but come at 2.



When we're discipline enough, it means that we're ready to be on top or else we're not.

don't complain! :)

"If you don't like something, change it. If you can't change it, change your attitude. Don't complain."
- Maya Angelou


Why do we always complain about things we don't like and not doing anything? Don't complain if we can't change it as it will make us feel worse. Just change ourselves to accept it and don't complain.

Being calm and positive is always be the best :D

nudity becomes porn because of rules saying that we have to cover our body with clothes.

XD

it is truly indonesia

why do we say Bali is "unlike in Indonesia" meanwhile it is truly in Indonesia?

i think it's the true Indonesia, instead. we just don't know indonesia well enough that we don't see its beauty.

tired of it.

when you are not in your mood
much better just to shut up
than to vent on others.

think 8 hours x work 2 hours

i have a t-shirt that a lot of people wear it too, a black t-shirt with "think 8 hours x work 2 hours" on it.

and i just noticed it yesterday that it really fits me.

i don't know. when someone ask me to do something or finishing my school task i don't really use the time to work on it. i'll think for a long time - like almost on the due date. then i'll just finish it right away - close to the deadline.


think a lot, work for a short time. :P

my dream home.... :D

my dream home.. on the peak of a hill of trees. beautiful view. cold and foggy. gloomy. plus and outdoor whir pool... and a woody living room with a nice pool... a relaxing white bedroom... and a bathtub in a woody room and a view of nature...

tho i think the bedroom won't match with the whole concept :P


huaahhh... gotta save a lot of money for that.. XD



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pour

diversity is awesome

autumn magic

from deviantart.com by camillo.

batik is ours.

today is great. everyone wore batik. everywhere. and my school.. all of my my friends wore batik. great. i'm so proud. seeing those various complexly beautiful batik to celebrate batik to be the world's heritage by unesco. now the world will see that batik is indonesia's instead of malaysia's. they will now see how beautiful indonesia's batik is.

heartless - kanye west/the fray

In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless...
How could you be so heartless?
Oh... How could you be so heartless?

How could you be so, cold as the winter wind when it breeze, yo
Just remember that you talkin' to me though
You need to watch the way you talkin' to me, yo
I mean after all the things that we've been through
I mean after all the things we got into
Hey yo, I know of some things that you ain't told me
Hey yo, I did some things but that's the old me
And now you wanna get me back and you gon' show me
So you walk around like you don't know me
You got a new friend, well I got homies
But in the end it's still so lonely

In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless...
How could you be so heartless?
Oh... How could you be so heartless?

How could you be so Dr. Evil, you bringin' out a side of me that I dont know...
I decided we weren't gon' speak so
Why we up 3 A.M. on the phone
Why does she be so mad at me fo'
Homie I dont know, she's hot and cold
I won't stop, won't mess my groove up
'Cause I already know how this thing go
You run and tell your friends that you're leaving me
They say that they don't see what you see in me
You wait a couple months then you gon' see
You'll never find nobody better than me

In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless...
How could you be so heartless?
Oh... How could you be so heartless?

Talkin', talkin', talkin', talk
Baby let's just knock it off
They don't know what we been through
They don't know 'bout me and you
So I got something new to see
And you just gon' keep hatin' me
And we just gon' be enemies
I know you can't believe
I could just leave it wrong
And you can't make it right
I'm gon' take off tonight
Into the night....

In the night, I hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul to a woman so heartless...
How could you be so heartless?
Oh... How could you be so heartless?

wat a life

I just watched the series of MTV Wonder Girls, a documentary made to document all the Wonder Girls' activities before and after their debute.

It was funny watching them being afraid and not confident. Yet, people around them looked at their potential and looked forward that they would be a great girl band. JYP, their producer, also had a high expectations for them that he had planned for their tour to Japan, China, and USA. They seemed to doubt it. But, now, look at them, the best Asian band and expanding to USA. They're now famous all over the world through the internet and become one of the most expensive Asian artists. Their hard work for years were not futile.



But, what interests me is SunMi's reaction when JYP was explaining about how hard it is to go into the world. SunMi cried. She was asked what is her dream? To be the world's best. JYP then explained how hard it is to achieve that. She has to work and practice for a whole days, sleep just for a few hours, and so on. She can not do whatever she want to. So, she has to choose another way to keep moving on.


It was kinda hit me. I just experienced it 2 weeks ago. When my dreams were like crumbling. I was almost giving up my dreams. My mom just said that I MUST go to college in Indonesia (tho she changed her decision later). I was like: DANG!! I had planned it all! My college. What job I would find. The salary I would get. Saving money and travel. And so on..... and she said that right away. What should I do now in Indonesia? I haven't found my specific major and college yet. hmmmmphh.....

I cried. Angry to my mom and grieving myself to be not able to reach my dreams I'd dreamed of for years. I couldn't calm myself down until I said to myself: I WON'T LOSE MY DREAMS. So, I tried to find alternatives right away just like what JYP said and finally found what I'm interested in. Tho I haven't be sure of it yet. At least I have some alternatives :p



Life is hard. I am just 17 years old but I can say this already. I can't imagine what it will be like in the future 10 years later from now. What if I can build a better life than what I have right now? Can I survive? Will I be successful? Can I reach all my dreams? Will I be lonely? Will I have friends in my new society? Can I see my friends again?

Those questions thrill me. But I have my dreams. I'll do everything to reach it. XD

carpenters/cubic u - close to you

Why do birds
Suddenly appear?
Everytime you are near
Just like me
They long to be
Close to you

Why do stars
Fall down from the sky?
Everytime you walk by
Just like me
They long to be
Close to you

On the day that you were born
The angels got together and decided
To create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moondust in your hair
Of gold and starlight in your eyes of blue

Just like me
They long to be
Close to you

the pics are not as good as the real views - since i can't afford buying an SLR cam :P
i was really amazed by the view, tho.

highway from bandung to jakarta

cisadane river

sunlight effect

on the way to senayan - relaxing my stress of getting late to jason mraz' show :P

life is all about options. that's what people say. that's true. but not always.

life is also about compulsions.
something that we can't choose.
something that people choose for us.
something fated for us.


when it goes for choosing either what we want or what we are fated.
when we are fated for what we don't want.
when we are chosen for what we don't want.

one word: suffocating.

be proud! :D

I just opened a blog I found a few weeks ago - akhyari.blogspot.com (Good News From Indonesia). What a great blog it is - reporting all the good things of Indonesia when teen agers of Indonesians are losing their nationalism.

And tonight, I found a very interesting post. This what will make Indonesians proud of their country and be confident with their identity as an Indonesian.

“It is not fair to compare Indonesia with it’s neighboring countries such as Singapore and Malaysia, or any other country in the world in that case. Indonesia has changed from a totally centralized country to a decentralized country virtually overnight. Indonesia has changed from a Dictatorship to a Democracy virtually overnight. Indonesia has changed to a liberal country virtually overnight. No other country has been through what Indonesia has been through virtually overnight. The closest example is the USSR. When the USSR split up, it experienced similar changes to what Indonesia had, virtually overnight. In that condition, Russia’s economy had a NEGATIVE growth that year. In that same condition, Indonesia’s Economy GREW. It had POSITIVE growth. If I were an Indonesian, I would be proud of that achievement. And I would predict a much brighter future"

- Jeffrey Sachs - American Economist (University of Columbia)

jeffrey sachs

We usually think that Indonesia sucks that we lose from our neighbor country which gained their independence later than us. They're younger but they can be more prosperous and have a much better economy. Should we embarrassed of that? NO!

And Jeffrey Sachs explained it. We have one of the best democracy in the world, yet the economy. Indonesia is one of a few countries that gained a positive economy growth in the turbulence of global crisis. Our stock market is has one of the best performance these last 2 years. Other countries love our president SBY who was elected for the second time that they believe in Indonesia to grow vastly.

So... let's proud of Indonesia! :D

Great Lessons of Life

• When someone lies to you, it teaches you that things are not always what they seem. The truth is often far beneath the surface. Look beyond the masks people wear if you want to know what is in their hearts. Remove your own masks to let people know who you really are.
• When someone steals from you it teaches you that nothing is forever. Always appreciate what you have. You never know when you might lose it. Never take your friends or family for granted, because today and sometimes only this very moment is the only guarantee you may have.
• When someone inflicts injury upon you, it teaches you that the human state is a very fragile one. Protect and take care of your body as best as you can, it’s the one thing that you are sure to have forever.
• When someone mocks you, it teaches you that no two people are alike. When you encounter people who are different from you, do not judge them by how they look or act, instead base it on the contents of what is in their hearts.
• When someone breaks your heart, it teaches you that loving someone does not always mean that the person will love you back. But don’t turn your back on love, because when you find the right person, the joy that one person brings you will make up for all of your past hurts. Times a thousand fold.
• When someone holds a grudge against you, it teaches you that everyone makes mistakes. When you are wronged, the most virtuous thing you can do is forgive the offender without pretense. Forgiving those who have hurt us is often the most difficult and painful of life’s experiences, but it is also the most courageous thing a person can do.
• When a loved one is unfaithful to you, it teaches you that resisting temptation is man’s greatest challenge. Be vigilant in your resistance against all temptations. By doing so, you will be rewarded with an enduring sense of satisfaction far greater than the temporary pleasure by which you were tempted.
• When someone cheats you, it teaches you that greed is the root of all evil. Aspire to make your dreams come true, no matter how lofty they may be. Do not feel guilty about your success, but never let an obsession with achieving your goals lead you to engage in malevolent activities.
• When someone ridicules you, it teaches you that nobody is perfect. Accept people for their merits and be tolerant of their flaws. Do not ever reject someone for imperfections over which they have no control.

• When someone loves us, it teaches us love, kindness, charity, honesty, humility, forgiveness, acceptance, and all of these can counteract all the evil in the world. For every good deed, there is one evil deed. Man alone has the power to control the balance between good and evil, but because the lessons of love are not taught often enough, the power is too often abused.
• When you enter someone’s life, whether by plan, chance or coincidence, consider what your lesson will be. Will you teach love or a harsh lesson of reality? When you die, will your life have resulted in more loving or more hurting? More comfort or more pain? More joy or more sadness? Each one of us has the power over the balance of the love in the world. Use it wisely!

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if we found out that we all had five minutes to live, every phone line in the world would be tied up with people calling other people to stumble about how much they love them. So don’t wait until we only have five minutes to live—do it now.

Trisha Wright

keep it cool

do not fight fire with fire - fight with water, instead.


they can be on fire. but you must not be on fire to fight them.
instead, you must be the water to wipe them out.

your heart should burn. but your head must not be burned - keep it cool.
there's no such a good mind comes up from a burned head.



XD

story of a chicken

Chicken? What's so special about it? Nice meat to eat.

No. Not just that. There's something making chicken quite amazing: It is somehow smarter than humans - the so-called most perfect creature. How can it be?

It's a Chinese wise words saying not to wake up late or else, chickens will take your luck.


The quotation used a chicken as its symbol because chickens are hardworking. They wake up before the sun comes up, looking for food, and go home after the sun goes down. They never sleep in the afternoon. They always find something to eat and never suffer hunger. And what makes them smart is: they never commit suicide - nor do they kill other chickens.

What about humans? We're lazy. We wake up late and go home early. We don't wanna work hard we just wanna be relax. All we wanna do is having fun. And, worst, we commit suicide when we are stressed out - or even kill other humans when we are angry.


So.. it is true that chickens are smarter, isn't it? :D
The question is: do we want to be below the animals that we eat everyday?

i hope i have time to say "i love you" and "i'm sorry" for the 5 most important people in my life - before i die.

let's make peacee :D

I'm Indonesian. I love my country. I love my nation. I love my diversity.

And I hate Malaysia for stealing my diversity. I hate Malaysia for stealing my islands. I hate Malaysia for being such a jerk.



And I just realized what a stupid person I am to be angry to Malaysia, shouting them "Malingshit" and shouting for war when I read one person writing a wall on IndonesiaUnite Facebook: "Just ignore Malaysia. Beat them by building our economy." and when Tata told Merlyn and I about a forum where Indonesians and Malaysians debating. I saw both of us have our own mistakes and are fools for being provocated. I've been subjective instead of objective - not seeing other factors.

So... let's just see what we can learn from this conflict:

Why Malaysia is wrong
1. They claimed and stole things that are obviously - people all over the world know - Indonesians': Batik, Reog Ponorogo, and Tari Pendet. They've been in Indonesia for hundreds of year. They Batik from Java and Tari Pendet comes from one of the most famous island in the world, Bali.

2. They said Indonesians don't have identity. So, what are they? Their identity is just: Muslim-Malayan. And they don't have beautiful cultures.

3. They said Indonesians can't have a peace with each other. Meanwhile, they're discriminating Indians there.

Why Indonesia is wrong
1. They won't care about their country unless this kind of thing happened.

2. They're too easy to be provacated. Too fast to angry and it becomes their backfire.


So... we have our own mistakes. Why should we blame others while we have our own mistakes? Why don't we just learn from our mistakes and fix it? Why don't we just make peace?

Indonesia and Malaysia used to be friend. Indonesia used to want Malaysia to be one part of this country. Malaysia either used to want to be one part of this country. They asked our leaders to send them good men to lead Malaysia. Malaysia used to learn how to develope a country from Indonesia. And those good relationship were ruined just because of Cold War?!



Let's just have a gentle competition and make PEACE :D

war? nope!

People shouted to have a war with Malaysia, from ordinary people to politicians. War? Is that the right thing to do?

I hate Malaysia. But I don't think it is the best solution.

War brings nothing good but hates, cries, and deaths. Then why should we make a war? Moreover, I'm pretty sure those shouting for war will reject if they're asked to volunteer in the war. Will they want to get involved?



Let's just ignore Malaysia and learn from our mistakes. We must take care of our country - its cultures, its people, its territories, its heritages, its nature, its environment.



No time for war. Make peace. Be mature. Beat them gently. XD

how will Indonesia improve?

You say it's nice in other countries 'cause it's clean but you yourselves never keep Indonesia clean - preserving rubbishes.

You say you hate traffic jams in Indonesia but you yourselves never be discipline while driving - preserving jams.

You say Indonesia is corrupted but you yourselves bribe officers - preserving corruption.

You say Indonesia's officers have no quality but when they try to improve you say they're looking for their own benefits - keeping it out of quality.

You say our airlines is bad but when they try to improve you yourselves don't help them - keeping it bad.

You say it's embarrassing that Indonesia's cultural diversity were stolen but you yourselves feel embarrassed when you "wear" those Indonesia's identities - keeping it stolen.

You say Indonesia is bad but you yourselves never try to fix it - keeping it bad.

You say Indonesia loses from other countries but you yourselves never try to improve this country - keeping it retarded.




So, how will Indonesia improve?

the world would be better without...

I saw Leo listing 5 things that will make the world be a better place if they don't exist in Facebook.

As usual, it made me think again..

the world would be a better place without:
1. hates
2. wars
3. conflicts
4. rich and poor
5. humans' ego


The world will definitely be a better place without them. all PEACE XD

2 good days in 2 bad weeks

Hmmmpphh!! After writing about my bad days - I feel I just wanna see my good days.


At least, I have two good days among those suck days.

First, I cooked for my friends. Finally, after dreaming about it - I cooked. Grilled Honey Chicken and Buffalo Wings. Tho it was not that good since I cooked the Buffalo Wings too fast. But the Grilled Honey Chicken wasn't bad, tho :P


And then.... Tata's birthday. We made an "attack" (her dad's vocab) at 7 in the morning - while she was sleeping :P I like her face when she just got up and clapped her hands - sooo round and funny with her sleepy narrow eyes :P At night, I went to her party with Niji and Jai who had stayed in my home at the night before.



When we got home we drank some liquor. And unfortunately, I was drunk and got a hangover in the morning and made my day bad again >.<>

urgh!!

These last two weeks suck. It was so stressful, tiring, emotional and hateful.

Bad math quiz, dealing with numbers a whole day, conflicts, hateful days, bad decision from my friend, messed up plans, and so on....

But, seriously! I could hardly get a peaceful day!



I've been trying not to hate anyone before. Until someone annoying, provocative, hypocrite, and sucks came up - starting all the troubles. Since then, hates everyday. Not just to that person - but also many other people. I become emotional and easily angry.

I lost my moods. I didn't have any mood to study - unlike the year before. I didn't have any mood to write - something that I like before. I didn't even have any mood to read.



My days are all messed up. I slept like at one in the morning and wake up at six - arrive at school like five minutes or even less before the bell rings. Even I was almost late this morning - a few seconds got into the gate before the bell rang. I used to wake up at 5.20 and arrive at school at 6.30. But I think I can't do that anymore. I lose my schedule.



Shoot! I feel so bad. I want peace in me. hmmmpphh.. I wish I could XD

living with others.

yes you have to be yourself.
but you're not alone in this world.
billions different people are trying to be themselves.

just like holes on a paper covering a window.
each hole has its own picture.

yet, they can make a whole picture of the window - since they still have similarities.




we somehow have to be similar to unite - to make one whole picture - in our differences.

again.

making distance
just because of "gossips".

FUCK!!!

discover the world

I realized something new about myself yesterday - when I was writing my wishes for Kezia in her birthday party. In the letter, I wrote "discover the world".

I never realized before, that I always say that thing. Each time people asked me what's my dream or when I am giving wishes to someone. That words will always come up. I just realized how much I love that words.

Discover the world. It really means a lot for me. That what my dream is. It is not just about visiting different countries and places. But it is also enjoying and blending myself to the world itself, learning new cultures in places I get to, making new friends to the citizens, and learn a lot of new things from my trip in discovering the world.

indonesia is bad? don't think so.

My friend asked a new english teacher for our class - Mr. Jim Wigginton: "What is the worst thing you know about Indonesia?" Jim answered: "Its traffic jam and mosquitoes."

It made me think. Why did my friend ask him about the bad things; why did he not ask about the good things instead?

Was it because we think Indonesia is bad? Indonesia does not have a good image in other countries' eye?

Well, yes. We have many bad things about Indonesia: one of the most corrupting country, bombed for many times, airplane crashes, sinking ferries, burned forest, illegal logging, and other bad things.

But, I don't thing foreigners see that (except for Malaysians :P) 'cause, actually: they LOVE Indonesia. Lots of them. I know that. So, I asked Mr. Jim: "So, what are the good things of Indonesia that you know?" He replied: "Nice people. I love Indonesians. They are nice. I love their smiles and warmth." He also said that he loves Indonesian foods, cultures, and beauties.

See? Compared to the bad things he said before, we have much more quality in our good-s instead of bad-s. Traffic jam and mosquitoes are nothing compared to our warmth, cultures, and beauties, aren't they? So, why don't we just see our good-s instead of our bad-s?

In fact, we have so many beauties that we don't know yet. Even foreigners know more than us, Indonesians. Isn't that embarrasing? We have Bali, Lombok, Raja Ampat, Batam, Mentawai, and sooo many more.

So, let's know about Indonesia better. Don't think that we're bad 'cause we're actually soo damn BEAUTIFUL!!! :)

batam, east of sumatra

raja ampat, papua

lombok

mentawai, west sumatra

beautiful, aren't they? :D

I've been listening to my korean songs playlist again these last few days - for the same playlist which means the same songs. Everyday for two years - never get bored and sick of it.

And while I was listening to my korean songs, I saw my friends were listening to their RnB or rock or pop songs by those famous american singers on my messanger.


It made me thinking: why do I love these korean songs more instead of worldwidely-famous american songs?

I remember being in US for a month - without any asian or even korean songs on radio, stores, malls, or my uncle's home. I listened to american songs - just like me 3 years ago before I started to like koreans. Yes, I liked the songs. They were good and somehow seemed mature. But, still, I missed korean songs.

Why is it? I mused for a while to think about it.

Korean songs and those of americans are so different. They have different color and I like that color. I am bored already with americans. They are good yet are easy to make me bored. But, not with koreans. They have more cheerful beats that make me enjoying the songs. They are creative to make new beats and rhythm. Their dances are silly but it make me laugh. That's why I never get bored even I've been listening to the songs for more than 200 times. XD