Why cry for those who have reached the finish line of their journey?

Though it is as difficult as shooting an arrow through the eye of a single needle in a towering forest of them.. as long as I keep forcing.. I CAN do it! Bring it on!

COLDPLAY - FIX YOU



When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down on your face
And on your face I...

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down on your face
And on your face I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you


Damn.. this Coldplay song is just unbeatable! Gives me such a hope and strength to keep going on. How I love this song... :D

Yea rite.. I lose my biggest gamble ever. I was like a millionaire coming to Vegas with such a confidence, gambling all my wealth in a game, a big, big, game. But it seemed to be not the right time. I lose. It is my biggest lost. My worst failure.

My parents have been supporting me greatly, they took me to Bandung every weekend so that I could learn from my uncle. They had spent lots of money so that I could study in the best course, rented a good room. My uncle, he had spent a day so that he could teach me in his very busy days. He put me into the best course. He helped with the administrations. He has high expectation on me. My best friends, they have been supporting me. And I have lost a month with them in the last days before they moved. My families, they have been praying for me and supporting me. My teacher, he had taught me and support me every single day, for 10 hours or even more a day, he has considered me as his own family. Everyone has high expectations on me.

And with this failure, I have disappointed lots of people, my parents, my uncle, my best-friends, my teacher, my families.

I feel so dumb, stupid. All one month I've spent, gone futile. I've tried my best but I can't make it. Dumb.



Well.. enough with that all negative-minded thingies. Let's just be POSITIVE :D

I failed in ITB.. So what?! I still have ITENAS to try. If I failed, then I just have to try harder! It might not as well-known as ITB, but it has a better quality. F**k prestige. ITB is just too low for me :P

And, anyway, the one month I've spent, is priceless. I've improved my skill much much better that before. Much more important than that, I got a new great FAMILY. My teachers are just like my parents, my friends are my brothers and sisters.


So.. why should I give a damn to this one little failure? :P

what the world would be if we don't know GOD, or any supreme-being in our life?

just see how chaotic USA is..

Live Curious - National Geographic

I just noticed the Live Curious campaign of National Geographic. And it is great!



If you are, you breath.
If you breath, you talk.
If you talk, you ask.
If you ask, you think.
If you think, you search.
If you search, you experience.
If you experience, you learn.
If you learn, you grow.
If you grow, you wish.
If you wish, you find.
If you find, you doubt.
If you doubt, you question.
If you question, you understand.
If you understand, you know.
If you know, you want to know more...
And if you want to know more, you are alive...

two more days until the day that will make my future!

i'm feeling fine.. just a very tiny bit of me is tense..
pretty sure that i WILL pass..

well.. hope so :P

I hate it when everything has been bounded by race and religion since the first time I get into a new society.

the last supper

These are what I did today..

went home at 12.30s,
woke up at 5.45,
went to church till 8,
had my breakfast,
slept at 9,
woke up at 11.30
had my hair cut,
ate my lunch,
slept at 1 pm,
opened my eyes at 3 pm,
checked my messanger for a sec,
slept again 3.30s,
woke up at 5.30s
went downstairs to have dinner,
now, online,
later, off to bed again.

sooo unproductive!

but.. I did really have a great time the night before! I had BBQ with my 'family' of Red Apple. Preparing it from 3 till 7. We joked around and laughed a lot while preparing and cooking stuffs. And we had more laughter when we BBQed the food! It was really fun!


We also gave a chocolate cake for our beloved teacher, Ms. Ling. We have considered her as our second mom. I've been with her since 10 years ago, the first time I moved here. Or even tata, cumi, and vinnie who have been taught since 12 years ago. Since we're so small, till we have graduated from high school.



Next, after finished having dinner at Ms.Ling house, we went karaokeing for 2 hours! We had a lot of fun that we lost our voice! :D



I could hardly stay awake today and lose my voice!