Yea rite.. I lose my biggest gamble ever. I was like a millionaire coming to Vegas with such a confidence, gambling all my wealth in a game, a big, big, game. But it seemed to be not the right time. I lose. It is my biggest lost. My worst failure.

My parents have been supporting me greatly, they took me to Bandung every weekend so that I could learn from my uncle. They had spent lots of money so that I could study in the best course, rented a good room. My uncle, he had spent a day so that he could teach me in his very busy days. He put me into the best course. He helped with the administrations. He has high expectation on me. My best friends, they have been supporting me. And I have lost a month with them in the last days before they moved. My families, they have been praying for me and supporting me. My teacher, he had taught me and support me every single day, for 10 hours or even more a day, he has considered me as his own family. Everyone has high expectations on me.

And with this failure, I have disappointed lots of people, my parents, my uncle, my best-friends, my teacher, my families.

I feel so dumb, stupid. All one month I've spent, gone futile. I've tried my best but I can't make it. Dumb.



Well.. enough with that all negative-minded thingies. Let's just be POSITIVE :D

I failed in ITB.. So what?! I still have ITENAS to try. If I failed, then I just have to try harder! It might not as well-known as ITB, but it has a better quality. F**k prestige. ITB is just too low for me :P

And, anyway, the one month I've spent, is priceless. I've improved my skill much much better that before. Much more important than that, I got a new great FAMILY. My teachers are just like my parents, my friends are my brothers and sisters.


So.. why should I give a damn to this one little failure? :P