feeling no hate feels really good!

what a discovery! i found it feels really good to feel no hate in my heart!

i just tried it a few days ago, on feb 9th, exactly. it actually started from the sociology class. we were studying about conflicts and mr. Sunu gave us a task to present some famous conflicts happening in Indonesia. to make us clear about how the conflict actually went on, mr. Sunu showed us a video titled :f**king scary video. looking at it, we laughed and made some jokes.

but then we stopped when we saw the corpse of the conflict's victims. damn! it really was f**king scary! it was a video about the conflict between Dayak people and Madura people in Borneo. they lost their face, hands, heads, any part of the body! even there were also people lifting their's enemy's heads which had been cut! They lifted it shouting proudly. even kids were killed! there was also part of the video showing some people

i was so speechless watching that video. i couldn't understand why do they were so not-human. in christianity, we were taught that humans are God's manifestations. and i agree with that. but, wathcing the video, i was wondering: how could God's manifestations killed other manifestations brutally?! they were EVIL!!

after the video had finished, we got back to our table and continue the lesson. but i couldn't concentrate on the lesson. i was thinking why could it happen. what's wrong with them that they could do such a thing. then i got the answer: HATE.

yeah! it's right. it starts from people don't like other people. then their don't-likes turn into hates. hates turn into grudges. and, finally, grudges turn into wars. it is what happen to wars happening in our world.

that's why, i, dont't want to start the war. i do really hate wars and i don't want to start it. then, by not hating any other person, it's gonna be PEACEFUL. well, it might be extreme if i say a war in my community. but yes, there are cold wars in my community. and it all start from: hate.

then i finally decided not to hate anyone. even those who are "deserted". i want to make friend with them and make a peace. and i managed to do it in me! i feel so PEACEFUL!

you guys should try it! let's make heaven comes to us :)