entering the world of circus

i always love christina aguilera. she is beautiful, adorable, and has an extraordinary voice. i'm a big fan of her. i love her songs like reflections, hurt, the voice within, and so on. she is my most favorite female western singer. and i, yesterday, my shuffle-play on my itunes played her two introductory songs of her latest album, back to basics: enter the circus and welcome. i've never noticed before that the two short songs are very important since they are short and, moreover, the 'enter the circus' was not sung by christina but a man. well, it is not like a song. it is just a head of a circus promoting his circus show to people. so what's so special about it? these short two songs really reflects how our life is. you can read it and see how our life works.

Enter The Circus
Ladies and gentlemen
Boys and girls
Step right up, step right up
Come closer, you won't believe your eyes
Behind this curtain,
Witness something you've never seen before,
Heard before, dreamt before
The most amazing show on earth

La la la la la la la
It's the most amazing show on earth
La la la la la la la

Do you want to be widely entertained?
People to know your name?
Do you crave fame?
Well they say "things aren't always what they seem to be"
Even your greatest fantasies
You won't believe your eyes
Won't even recognise
The wonderment that lies
Behind the shimmer and the lights

Is it true what they say?
Is it all just fun and games?
Or is there more behind the makeup,
And the faces full of paint?

I ask you, do you want to come and play?
Hahahaha
Get the world to come and play
Hahahaha

So sit back, relax, fasten your seatbelts
It's going to be a bumpy ride to the other side

Welcome
Welcome to the greatest show
Greatest show on earth
You've never seen before
Here the fairytale unfolds

What's behind the smoke and glass?
Painted faces, everybody wears a mask
Are you selling them your soul?
Well you'll be left out in the cold

Is it all blue skies
Fun and games untill you fall
Then you're left without anyone at all
You're riding on a shooting star
With a smile upon your face
But soon the shine fades

And you're left out all alone
Wondering where did they all go?
Oooh

Been jaded, hated,
Who'll be around when the limelight's faded?
Been shut down, pushed out
Made to smile when I wanted to frown

Always taking a bow
Always working the crowd
Always breaking new ground
Always playing the clown
Who'll be sticking it out?
Who'll be staying around
When the lights go down?

pictures of West Sumatra. we also have canyons more exotic than Grand Canyon, you know. :P

and it is the pictures of North Sumatra.

windi just reminded me a very old song. it might be a song from like 80s or older. she said that it is her favorite love song. and i think it is mine too. hahaha. it is If sung by Bread. the song was lost from my computer for 3 years. my old computer was infected so i gotta reformat it. i won't remember the song unless she told me that. :P

here is the lyric:

If a picture paints a thousand words,
Then why can't I paint you?
The words will never show the you I've come to know.
If a face could launch a thousand ships,
Then where am I to go?
There's no one home but you,
You're all that's left me too.
And when my love for life is running dry,
You come and pour yourself on me.

If a man could be two places at one time,
I'd be with you.
Tomorrow and today, beside you all the way.
If the world should stop revolving spinning slowly down to die,
I'd spend the end with you.
And when the world was through,
Then one by one the stars would all go out,
Then you and I would simply fly away

People think, what does Sumatra have? there's nothing interesting there.

wait.. you just haven't known it yet. here are the two pics of the northernmost and southernmost tip of Sumatra, Aceh and Lampung.


beautiful, isn't it? and they're just a little of the beauty of Sumatra. Lots of other exotic places you can find out there.

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The way there are no clocks in casinos and whenever you walk into one, the people in there are the people who shouldn’t be in there.

The way supermarket aisles are designed to be confusing and no one in their right mind would put laundry detergent next to dog food.

The way economy class seats on an airplane could easily be more comfortable but they want you to pay to upgrade to first class.

The way everything you buy is designed to break so that soon, you’ll have to buy a new one.

The way the whole world tries everything in its power to break you too.

The way you refuse, under any circumstances, to show the slightest crack.

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It's important to have our own principal. But when we lock our heart and mind, we forget one of GOD's greatest gifts: other humans. What are other humans created for if it's not to help us in becoming a better person?

Three things I considered to be the most precious things in my life: GOD, Mother Nature, and humans.

a great sky in the end of january

huff..

it's february already.

it's been quite a while since the last time i posted on this blog. i don't know why i lose my mood in everything. i have no mood to write, read, or watch tv. i got try outs everyday each week for 3 months. and it's been the 3rd week and i still havent got any mood to study yet.

i just wanna relax and loafing around. all i do at home are just chat, surf internet, read some comics, eat, take a shower, sleep. that's it. i just sit in front of my laptop instead of studying


all of my friends are focused on studying for try outs. but i'm not. my only focus is the test for ITB on 29th and 30th of may. i don't care with the tests and scores at school. i don't care with my try outs as long as i still get above 60. i don't care with my national test 2 more months as long as i graduate. f**k those grades. i just wanna practice on my drawing for ITB. not accepted there gonna be disastrous since i dont have anywhere to go. if i wait for another year i dont think i have the mood to study.



but now i feel like a freak for real. i do nothing at school but drawing. i don't listen to teachers, i don't hang out with my friends, not even chat with them. now i sit and practice for my drawing, silently - for hours.

and i really wanna be alone. meanwhile my other friends shouted each other's name to make a group, i sit alone and do it by myself silently.




it feels horrible. yet i somehow enjoy it.

*sigh*