Finally, after debating and fighting and hold my emotion back so that i wouldn't be exploded with my mom, she let me making up my own schedule to SF. huaahh.. it was so tiring; fighting with my mom in TWO days. In TWO days she argued with me, lectured me, and even JUDGED me for bad things.
I was so damn tired. I got to control my emotion; hold it back so that i wouldn't explode. If it did, I wouldn't have been permitted to have a farewell party with my friends in Lembang for 3 days. And I was like grabbed anything near me, even I almost scratched my thigh, and inhaled air as much as possible, and tried to distract my mind from every single word coming out from my mom's mouth. ckcks.
I just can't describe it how tiring it is. She said that she just wanted to remind me about being respectful, she said she just wanted to give me advices; but then, she FORCED me to follow her to go to SF since the first day of my holiday and miss the farewell party cos for her it is not important. DAMN!! I LOVE my friends and it might be the last time being with them until may be at least 5 more years I can see them again. How can I miss my farewell party?! And when I explained it to her, she said that I just live for my friends and never think for others especially my family. And she also said that I don't want to listen to their teaching anymore. WAT THE HELL MOMMM!!! You just never understand the way I love my friend cos she never had this kind of friendship!
My first schedule was: go to Lembang for 3 days on 22nd-24th of June and go to SF in 26th of June and back to Jakarta on 9th of June. But my mom insisted that I should go to SF since the first day of my holiday which is in 14th of June. So, I discussed it with Tata and she gave me the best alternative for me: go in 26 until the first week of the new school year which is in 16th. I agreed and negotiated with my mom. However, still, she insisted. She said that if I want to go on 26 then it is better for me not to go to SF at all. DAMN!
I held my emotion; said: okay! up to you! then went back to my room. In the next morning, we didn't talk at all.
I felt a kind of guilty, actually. But everything my mom had said to me on the 2 days before made mad. I "hate" her. So, I thought hard at school, thinking how to make the best schedule. Unfortunately, there's nothing better than Tata's idea. I decided to discussed it again with my mom later when I got home.
Luckily, THANK GOD, I don't know what got into her mind, she sent me a message when I just finished my school saying that she was sorry about what she said before and let me make up my own schedule. huaaahhh!!!!
FINALLY!!
I don't know why it is so tiring arguing with my mom. And I came up with an idea that it is because she is a Leo. This idea came up when I was discussing with Tata. She said: "Is your mom a Leo?" I was like: oh yeah! damn! so it is! she is a Leo and that's why she is so stubborn and never agreed with me and that's why she is TIRING. shit.
It's like my destiny to live with Leo people. First, I always play with Tata - who is a Leo - and it is sooo tiring. And also Merlyn - who is also a Leo - and it is the same. And worse, I live with my mom for 17 years and she is the one taking care of me for the whole of my life and she is also a Leo.
I wonder how could I survive in this whole 17 years. hahahahahahahah.
*doesn't mean that I hate my mom. I love my mom! :)*
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